The mother and daughter
The mother and daughter
So different yet so alike
The words they exchange across the table
Lie idle, yet cause so much strife
The silence is so heavy
It breaks my heart in two
I want you just to love me
Is that so hard for you to do?
You say those three words on occasion
A steel-cut “I Love You”
But what these veiled words make me wonder
Is do you like me Mom, do you?
See love it is a promise
You made when I was born
But to like me is not so easy
It’s something I must earn
So what did I do that makes you look at me
With such disgust upon your face
Is it my looks, my thoughts, my actions
Do I have any saving grace?
Please Mommy, please tell me
I’ll do anything to make you care
This constant battle weighs heavy
What’s going on behind that vacant stare?
The hostility only grows deeper
Spilling blood though it’s the one thing we share
When I hurt, I know it hurts you too
We’re bound together, a twisted love affair
You’re blood type A, while I’m an O
Natural repellents we may be
But O is the universal donor
Is saving this relationship up to me?
I wish you could see on days I’m mad
It’s not because of you
I wish you could see all of my sad
Maybe then you’d be kinder to me too
But when I wake up and I see you
Sneering at me from the start
I regress into my own self doubt
And our connection further tears apart
The seams they’ve been split open
But it’s not too late you see
Just like a seamstress sews ripped pieces back together
We’ll fix the fraying fabric once bonding you to me
I long for your company Mom
To feel your warm embrace
But it’s more than physical touch I need
It’s for love to show upon your face
I fear the time is nearing
Where we will go past the point of repair
Please let me wrap my arms around you once more
And feel the brush of your gold hair
I think we’re more alike than you realize
I think you need me too
Let’s leave the past behind us
It is time to start anew
No matter where we go from here Mom
I promise
To always have love for you
The luck of Lilah 